Oh gosh . . .

okay, seriously, i need to get with some band buddies ASAP!!! i was practicing piano today and i was not having fun and i was like, hmm, i'm an ensemble person really. so i got on the computer and listened to our summer dances and loch lomond cuz i wanted something to do besides piano. and i was like, THIS CLOSE to crying! i couldn't stop thinking about sandra doing her solo (she sounded much better than the official recording) and shanti overcoming that high note and mikeska and conner doin vibes (it was mikeska and conner right?) and the clarinets bulldozing their way through 171 in summer dances and all the euphonium-clarinet matchy matchy and those high g's that i cried over and that awful drone beneath those beautiful solos and mr. piwetz's face during loch lomond . . . SERIOUSLY. i need to see some of my clarinet buddies before i have a nervous breakdown and start adding drum beats to my piano book and learning the exact notes and rhythms for lead, bass, rhythm, drums, etc. on EVERY beatles song just for the sake of ensemblyness!!!!!!!!